Sunday, January 8, 2017

rest in peace, oz

Jeff and I have known for several month that Ozzy's time with us was limited. He started aging fast the last several months.... really since about late June. We saw him take some downhill turns, then he would kind of pull himself out of it and be his old self. We also knew we didn't want him to suffer through another cold winter. 

His back legs didn't work all the time, he slept basically all day tucked away in the corner of our room, he couldn't see, he was confused. He would have been 15 next month... pretty good run. 

Jeff wanted to get through the holidays. So, we did. It was Tuesday morning, Jeff told me it was time... though it wasn't a shock, I was heartbroken. 

I knew we had to wait until the day before to tell the kids. He scheduled it for Friday morning. So our night to tell them the news was Thursday. Jeff went out and got Ozzy a steak dinner, we fed him hershey kisses for treats and gave him ice cream for dessert. He was more active on Thursday than he has been in weeks. Which made much harder. 

After dinner on Thursday we told the kids. They went from happy cheerful to uncontrollable sobs. Isaac kind of tucked into Jeff's armpit and buried his head and cried. I think he gets it. Anna sort of gets it but kept asking us why we were taking him away. She was begging for more time. We talked about how Ozzy would be with Hailey now and could see again and not be sore and old. We talked about the rainbow bridge. She cried and cried. It was so hard. I get emotional thinking about it. She fell asleep crying and woke up Friday morning crying. They both snuggled him so much Thursday night and Friday morning before Jeff took them to school. Saying their last goodbyes through tears. 

Jeff took the kids to school and came home and we took the dogs to the vet. We took Rudy along because we want her to know what is going on, too. Oz was his good old self the whole time. Rudy was busy and nonstop when we were there but once we put Ozzy down she got really calm and quiet. Our vet was so good. It's so hard. So so hard. 

Anna's teacher emailed me Friday afternoon to tell me that Anna shared with her class that her dog died. She cried when she told her class. It seriously breaks my heart. 

I was telling my mom Friday afternoon that it's hard to see your kids upset about normal things, like a scrape or someone not sharing with them, etc. But it's a whole different experience seeing your kids truly heartbroken. We were all heartbroken. We are trying to be the brave parents but we would break down with them. They are old enough to understand whats going on. 

At least once a day one of them tells me they miss Ozzy. We are all missing him so much. 

I am not sure what's in store for the future. We know we want to get Rudy a friend. She is sad. The first night without Ozzy she slept under our bed- which she never does. So, time will tell. Until then, our hearts are healing from the loss of our sweet pup. 

Friday evening Jeff wanted to go out to celebrate Ozzy and to get out of the house. Isaac chose HuHot. It was justwhat we needed. Love my family. 

Rest in peace, Oz. 

last pic of our family with oz
(anna's sad smile)


Jeff and oz
family slumber party on Oz's last night

Friday morning snuggles. So sad

Saying his last goodbyes before school on Friday

Anna saying her last goodbye before school

heading to the vet. trying to be positive

noodle crazy. celebrating oz.